We had a very good Thanksgiving and went to Chris's Grandparent's house to celebrate together. I got to meet his sister for the first time and that went better than I could have hoped for.....I really like her. It was just a really good time hanging out with family. It was different this year being the first Thanksgiving without my mom......but I was glad to keep my mind occupied so I didn't sit around crying all day. I sure did miss helping her get the food ready to take to Thanksgiving. I used to help her do the mashed and sweet potatoes while she was upstairs stressed out trying to finish her makeup while we were all running late. Those little memories sure do just set you over the edge. I am Thankful that Kellie won't be spending any more holidays without my mom as it use to make me feel very guilty that we were celebrating holidays together while she was alone in Heaven.....so the fact that they are back together gives me some peace. Anyways, what else has happened. Last weekend, Chris made me one heck of a proud girlfriend.....he graduated college. I don't think he'll really ever understand just how proud of him I truly am. It was an honor to walk in his shadow that day. If you're reading this, I'm utterly proud of you baby. Now it's on to bigger and better things for the both of us!
Christmas is coming up in a matter of weeks and I'm no where near ready for it. My mind is torn becuase I'm excited to wake up Christmas morning with Chris for the first time in our own home and start our own Christmas traditions, but I'm so sad to spend my first Christmas without my mom. She loved Christmas. She loved watching us open gifts and going shopping together. She spoiled me rotten and still bought me gifts like I was 5 years old. It's not the gifts I will miss this year, it's just her.....I can't type this without crying my eyes out. I wonder if any holidays will ever feel like they are supposed to ever again? Chris and I are going to put our tree and decorations up tomorrow and I'm hoping that will help to get me more in the holiday spirit. I'm going to go help my dad put up his tree this weekend........it was always something him and my mom did together and I know we are just going to stand there in the living room and bawl like big babies together.....but together, we will get through this.....somehow.
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